Biggest fear.

 I know i said it’s alright,

If this feeling is just on my side,

But why when that news that i hear,

I cant avoid but feels like my heart shatters.

This is so sad that I can’t control my tears,

The fact that it is still my biggest fear,

The world is just so unfair to make me feel this everytime,

And I can’t help but to be hurt because of this heart of mine.

It feels so suffocating that I can’t even blame anyone,

Because in the end this is the decision of mine,

The risk is all what I have calculated,

But a joke is me, the one who thought;

That I stand a chance to even go near.

Now I know what and where you stand,

I pray for the best and wish you a succesful life,

Thank you for these great 11 months,

For hearing and standing by my side,

You are indeed one in a million;

But maybe its just me whom not destined.

To be there in your paradigm