Day day

Sebenarnya, lately I’ve been writing too much personal things that I can’t bring myself to let people read my personal thoughts. Even siapa je baca blog ni hahahahah. Tapi to think how I was losing myself for the past two months. I can’t even be honest to myself. Funny isn’t it. 

There are still few of my posts yang I rasa maybe I will just keep it secret, just my thought and I. To be honest I never knew that this day will come. I never tell anyone about my biggest insecurities, problems publicly. I think this is my first time. Orang kisah atau tidak, even baca atau tidak, I don’t think it matters. It’s me, am I going to accept it or not.

I remember reading a quote saying “Let go and let God.” I mean it takes more than a courage for you to forgive, either people around you or yourself. I believe today is a chance for me to make things better, to let my heart at ease. 

This thought of macam mana kalau esok hari terakhir aku, I would never want this dendam dana amarah lingers in my heart. I want to end my life with me loving and be loved. 

In the end, I know I am not a perfect person. As much as I think the world is against me, I might be the one who makes others a hell. Thats how I reflect myself. 

Dont beat yourself too much.

You did well.

You definitely did.