Wonder

I heard the bell ringing,
Wonder; what makes you here,
To this castle of cloud,
There is no one but this face,
That hides behind the frost and hoping not to melt.

I continue watching you from above the mirror,
Wonder; what should I do either 'or' or 'nor',
I open the door - and you sitting there on the stairs,
Your eyes brings me to join you with that smile that you wear.

I pray to God don't let me in despair,
Please help me in guiding this feeling well,
But I am still full with my thousands of flaws,
Silently wishing please don't just come and go,
Wonder; will it be the same,
 or maybe if - the paradigm will change.

It's no one fault but mine and only mine,
To feel this way where I thought it was a sunshine,
I thought you could bear the coldness thoughts,
Wonder; is it deepest fear or my highest hope ,
Nevertheless you still are a blessing in disguise,
That I am going to treasure for the rest of my life,
Been prepared for this then and now,
Pat my self "It's okay, it's going to be okay somehow."

The trail is taking a break, I guess?